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Post by && We Will Become Silhouettes on Aug 15, 2005 14:36:01 GMT -5
darn.. the crawl part gets on my nerves it's all gutteral sounding...
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Post by Pay No Mind on Aug 15, 2005 16:37:56 GMT -5
I still haven't listened to it....
But I really want some watermelon...
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Post by && We Will Become Silhouettes on Aug 15, 2005 19:03:44 GMT -5
our watermelon leaked in the fridge.. bleck...
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Post by Pay No Mind on Aug 15, 2005 19:24:17 GMT -5
Lovely..
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Post by Little Miss Vampiress on Feb 24, 2006 23:10:44 GMT -5
Wow.. I feel special..kinda... Yea, anyway, I havent been on here in a while, I know.. so I thought I'd make my re-debut.. haha.. I'm still dorky and crazy as always, and yea. So, to catch up on my life since the last time I posted here...
In august I did something really stupid. You remember me talking about the guy I met named Zach.. well I got engaged to him... we broke up in October... we're still close friends..
In December I started going out with this guy Shaka from school, I've known him since last school year... He's liked me for a while.. anyway, I broke up with him on January 23.. he was getting jealous of all my friends, and he was getting overly protective, and VERY possessive... plus the fact that I didnt see out relationship going anywhere...
Valentine's day sucked. I like this guy, who I know I cant have.. I know he doesnt like me like that, seeing as he mentioned today about his off-and-on girlfriend... He doesnt know how I feel, and I refuse to tell him... I refuse to be rejected by him the way I was by Chris...
Shaka is still obsessed with me...
and this afternoon, I had to talk Zach out of killing himself...
my life is crazy...
my thoughts of the day:
Why do I always end up broken and alone? Is it just my destiny to be alone, to never find love? What's wrong with me that no one wants me? I'm losing my grip.. I dont know what to do anymore... I dont know anything... I dont know why I fall for guys I know I cant have, guys I know dont want me, guys I know people say are "too old" for me... I'm pathetic... Sometimes I wonder why I was put here on this planet.. but I know that I have a reason... I just wish I knew what it was... I guess I'll just have to keep walking my path... I just wish I wasnt so alone....
~Nikki
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Post by && We Will Become Silhouettes on Feb 26, 2006 0:32:36 GMT -5
ok so I know this'll sound snobby but are you straight now or do you just lean more towards the guys?
and then my next thing is..
you aren't meant to be alone, and you seem to have a lot of guys in your life. you'll find someone eventually but until then you have your friends. which are more important anyway. so yeah don't sweat it hun focus on the other things that matter in life.
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Post by Pay No Mind on Feb 26, 2006 1:30:25 GMT -5
I have come to realize that the love of your friends is something that will never end and that true love is something you find....but even if you don't...you always have the love of your friends no matter what...
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Post by Little Miss Vampiress on Feb 28, 2006 20:21:19 GMT -5
to answer your question Erin, I'm straight.. I'm just free-spirited, and, in all fun, I'll make out with my friends just to get a reaction out of the people around us.. or if I'm bored..... (why does that sound slutty in my mind?)
Thanks guys. I'm glad to know you care. I just hate not having a "special someone" that I can lean on, that I can talk to whenever I need to... you know what I mean?
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Post by && We Will Become Silhouettes on Mar 2, 2006 19:18:41 GMT -5
Honey Mother Thereasa wouldn't understand as much as I do lately.
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Post by Pay No Mind on Mar 4, 2006 14:31:13 GMT -5
Even if you had that "special someone" doesn't mean that you could necessarily talk to them....
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Post by Little Miss Vampiress on Mar 10, 2006 7:08:43 GMT -5
But the way I've always pictured my special someone, is as someone I can talk to about almost anything.. If I cant talk to them, then we wont be very close...
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Post by Little Miss Vampiress on May 26, 2006 10:27:46 GMT -5
OK, time for another Nikki Update.
School's finally out (YAY!). I need to find a job, and I need to get my driver's liscense. I like my friend Dana's brother Dusty, and I thought Dana would kill me if I told her... Turns out she already figured out that I like Dusty, and he kinda figured it out too...*blush*... The other night when we were all hanging out at Graduation, I probably made a COMPLETE fool out of myself in front of him... Anyway, Me, Dusty, Dana, our friend Egypt, and Dusty's friend Jared were all hanging out...we were getting ready to leave, and Dana and Egypt had my arms linked with theirs. (I was standing in the middle). Dusty was deciding who was riding where, because we had Dusty's truck, and Jared's truck. Anyway, Dusty said he had Me and Egypt, and Dana could ride with Jared. Jared was like "No, I want the one in the middle" meaning Me. So then, Dana was like "No, she's mine." **And about this time, I'm giggling, and I asked Dana if they were fighting over me, and she's like "yea" and I'm all like "wow, I feel special" lol** And Dusty was like "She's with me." and Jared's all like "No I want her." And I look at Dusty, and he's got his handcuffs out (the handcuffs I was wearing almost half the night) and I unlink myself from Dana and Egypt, and I'm like "I'm with Dusty! he's got the handcuffs!" lol... So when we got to Dusty's truck, Jared, Dana, and Egypt all climbed in the back, and I sat up front with Dusty, and we took Jared down to where he was parked. Then Dusty took me home, Jared following, and we got some pics together.
*I'll post the pics later.*
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Post by Little Miss Vampiress on May 26, 2006 15:50:45 GMT -5
 ^^Me, Dana, and Egypt.  ^^Me and Jared  ^^Me and Dusty  ^^Dusty Cuffed me... hehe |
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Post by && We Will Become Silhouettes on May 27, 2006 11:06:22 GMT -5
dusty? ?
oi vei it goes again.
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Post by JoeSchmoe on May 30, 2006 6:20:16 GMT -5
Oh lord...wait till Jamie hears about this one...
He is going to laugh his ass off!
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